How have you changed in the past year?
I do not have enough words in my vocabulary to tell you how much I have changed and how much the Lord is continuously changing me. It is only by God’s grace, and His alone, that I am here. The Lord has been taking some roots that were so firm and permanent, I thought it was my identity. But the Lord showed me that it was not my identity, it was just an unfortunate circumstance. I have changed so much that women who are close to me continuously have told me that I have bloomed.
Isn’t that such a beautiful picture? The Lord took some some toxic weeds and rooted them out. He has tilled the soil of my heart and through the great Gardener, flowers are blooming in my life that I have never imagined would be possible.
My heart is so much more open and so much more authentic. I have allowed friendships in my life and let the walls of my heart down. Wounded hearts tend to not want to get wounded, again. So, your soul protects it. In ways that may not be healthy. I was very good at shutting people out. I just built walls up. Walls that had no end or beginning. Walls you could not see through or climb over.
The ironic thing is, I shut out people who had no interest in hurting me. The people that stuck around who could see my heart were the only ones who were patient enough to wait to see a glimpse. The person who did hurt me, however, I allowed access to my heart. Continuously. And they kept wounding me. Over. And over. And I never realized how much abuse I endured. It was normal life.
Until I got out of darkness and into the marvelous light of truth. And I started to see that my norm, was not the norm that God wanted me to have in my life.
But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light. (1 Peter 2:9)
It was only when I surrendered my life to him that he took control over my circumstances. There was nothing I could do to make him take the weeds any faster. It was only through His perfect timing and when I was ready to surrender.
Whatever your deceptive roots are, allow him to take control over it. Roots are deep. The only way to be effective in the Kingdom is to allow Him to take out the deception in your life and to be rooted in His truth and in Him alone. My fervent prayer is that I am in His grip forever more.
Therefore, as you have received Christ Jesus the Lord, walk in Him, rooted and built up in Him and established in the faith, just as you were taught, overflowing with gratitude. (Colossians 2: 6-7)